I spent a good portion of yesterday stuffing a zafu, an older one actually that had been stuffed with some material I couldn't identify. Not kapok or buckwheat hulls. I chose the latter and got it higher than my current zafu and support cushion combined. I think it will help my kness just a bit, although the thing now weighs a ton! That's ok, however, because I'm officially in my new sitting space full time and my old one in the bedroom is already occupied. I'd been sitting in the new space during the week, a 4 x 8 ft. oversized closet really, but just this weekend got a door put up so I can have a bit of privacy if need be.
I'm hoping it increases my sits since they have dropped off the last couple weeks. Some of it has been some memories popping up during zazen that aren't pleasant. Usually that doesn't bother me too much, but for awhile I've been finding reasons not to sit and most of them just ran out with the new space. It'll be nice to go in there when my folks arrive in a couple days for a weekend visit....I'll need the refresher. ;)
Otherwise I've been working otuside when the weather permits, especially now that the grass is high enough to mow. I have to keep up with it since I use a reel mower and when it gets too high and/or too wet it gets pretty difficult. I've been doing the organic thing out there for the last three years now and I'm realtively happy with the results, but my wish that it was better creeps in every now and again. That's especially true this past week with the arrival of some very nasty weeds that have tough stalks and wheat-like heads that clog up the mower. And as I watch the folks around me with their gas mowers and pesticide laden lawns, I'm reminded of something I read in a new book I started recently. It's about how we try to get rid of weeds as something undesirable and lament the process of their removal. But, oh the opportunities for practice! But, more about that soon.
For now, back to dirty diapers!